Travis Meadows- Old Ghosts and Unfinished Business

travisSo, I downloaded Travis Meadow’s new album yesterday..I love his music, it is so honest and he writes straight from the heart. The album has quite a few songs that the words make me smile, but the stand out song for me has to be Nice Girl. Unfortunately it will never be a radio song as it is “explicit”. However, I smiled every time I hear it and you can feel the bitterness and anger toward an ex coming out in his words. I am sure there is a man or two who has sang it about me way back when….Powerful stuff Travis!

I can also say that the picture on the album cover could be my father on the horse! Really look at my fathers picture here below:

dad

Here is a Dennis Tudor’s copy he took of it live and put up on Youtube…

Follow up to Surgery

I feel pretty damn good. In fact, I feel better ten days out of surgery then I felt for the entire year beforehand. The worst part is the waiting!

We went over to see the worlds best Gynocologist! Dr Rittenmaier at GOA. Well of course I am going to say that! But truly, I have felt like they were top notch from beginning to end. Appointments were prompt, surgery was prompt, follow ups were prompt, and he has a great manner of speaking that is blunt and to the point. He is not going to give you more information then you need, but he is very sure about what he says.

I had some discontiuous areas of FIGO stage 1 endometrial cancer. The largest piece was 4 CM.  The pelvic was clear, the lymph nodes were negative, there was no cancer except in the uterus.  It weighed about a half pound. It should be a total cure, however, I do have to do the following:

1) Go for pelvic exams every 3 months for 3 years. At that time they will also do the CA-125 blood test. The risk of doing scans is more then the risk of the nice and early cancer returning so none of those. After three years, I go every 6 months for a further two years.

2) Pap smear once a year, which surprised me, since I thought without a cervix that may be a moot point. But apparently they take a swab of the top. Guess I shouldn’t get too greedy and expect no reproductive organs and bleeding as well as no pap smears at the same time!

3) Listen to your body. Get your regular mammeograms once a year, and blood pressure etc checked every year. The normal things. Watch for unusual things.

4) Get a colonoscopy every 5 years. Wow, this is getting even more fun!

He also put on what he called his dog and pony show. This was on HRT.

nb 1

Use the first one for two weeks, the patches. Then use the spray on your arm every night once for two weeks. Then use the rub on your arm for two weeks. See which one you like the most and come back and they will give you a years supply. I was glad to see those as I was already crying at Kitten Pictures on Facebook, and crying through a WW 2 movie, so I definitely wanted my hormones to even out.

He also gave me some excellent plain talking observation notes that he gives to his patients on cancer, HRT etc. If you are interested in them let me know, I can email.

IF I CAN BE ONE OF THOSE ANNOYING WOMEN TO MY FRIENDS FOR A moment AND SAY GET YOUR YEARLY TESTS! I will never be able to explain the relief I felt at having cancer, but it being in something that they could easily cut out of you (and it was a part most women my age don’t want anyways!), AND that it was stage one, well contained, I don’t think I will ever forget that feeling.

They are very adamant that you not have sexual intercourse for 6 weeks. It is repeated over and over, for gods sake, I bled forever, sex once every 6 weeks would be a bonus to my husband over the last couple years I would think!

We stopped at the Meathouse and Mothers in Newport Beach on the way home to pick up some meats and “health food” type things. Never thought I would see the day I was in those! Mother’s was LARGE, i was impressed! Anything to keep my  glucose levels down nowadays people!

nb 3I have been put on “crap” “medical food” for the diabetes by my doctor. Sigh. I hate protein type drinks of any kind. They may call this Dutch Chocolate, but to me it tastes more like cardboard…with yucky lumps!  Metagenics has brought down my blood glucose levels an average of 20-30 points overall, which is pretty good. I have tried it blended, mixed with ice and coffee, and other ways. There is no dam way I can convince myself it is a moccha frappucino! I think them saying they have patients who always take some with them out because they like it so much they use it for dessert is plain old marketing.

I have found the best way is to put as little liquid in it as possible, get my husband to mix it  really good and down it quickly. Hence the shaker in the picture. And my family will appreciate that I can never, and I mean never, make a can opener, electric or not, work. I did buy a new one today though to try it one more time!!!

nb 2I continue to feel better and better though with the diabetes control. I am down 25 lbs and I am starting to think that I may make it down for a couple months to the boat in June, after I am finally cleared. But first I have to built myself up so I don’t need a nap every time I walk through costco (Like today)

I think I have rambled enough. I just wanted to let everyone know how I was who have been so kind sending thoughts, letters, (chocolate! No one sent chocolate!) and keeping in touch with me.

Pathology came back :)

The oncologist called me this morning. He asked me if there was someone else to put on the phone as well so more then one person could hear and I thought “uh oh”

But it was all good! It showed, mostly in his words, a small volumne of cancer that had not gone into the muscles, and there was no lymph gland involvement, so I do not have to have either chemo or radiation at this point!! The surgery should be a total cure, although I do have to go every 3 months for a few years and then every 6 months until year 5 for an exam and follow up :)

Made both Bazza and I very happy, as believe me, I am tired of me being sick!!!! When I see him on Wednesday this week we will go over HRT. Feeling quite blessed today, everyones thoughts and prayers made a big difference. Thank you.

Weird feeling, though, the tops of my thighs down to my knees are either numb or have pins and needles…

thief goes to court yesterday..

Here is a link for those interested about one of the teenagers who robbed us in February being in court this week. The story on ALL the web pages here has quite a few discrepanies, and I would have though that the prosecutors would have talked to us first…
http://www.bviplatinum.com/news.php?page=Article&articleID=1366743405

 

However, I will be in court in June to watch this person “who is defending themselves”

I wonder if it cathartic that this one out of the 3 went to court the same day I had my operation….

Operation over and done with..Yucky picture at end if you don’t like body parts!

I have more pictures to add to my photo collection of me on every gurney or table they can find. This is at HOAG yesterday morning (BTW, the womens pavillor there is very nice. It looked like a hotel check in, not a hospital. In fact, althe receptionists had blue blazers and nattily tied scarves around there neck.)

Getting ready for surgery, but not quite time yet...

Getting ready for surgery, but not quite time yet…

Everyone was very nice, it was quite efficient and one of the nurses I had before I went into surgery loved SCUBA diving, so I will able to keep my mind off of it for awhile. I did however, as it got closer have a bit of anxiety and tears, but that went away once they gave me valim as they were about to roll me into ER. You can see my eyes shimmering here…

Just about ready to go to ER.

Just about ready to go to ER.

First time I have ever been somehwere that did these two things: 1) After I weighed myself, the nurse took about a lb and a half off for my clothes! I liked that. After spending the previous day doing bowel prep I was feeling very slim! But of course surgery put it back on :) 2) When they took me back to do the pre op stuff, they told my husband to wait outside and they would come back and get me. The reason they do this is they ask you if you are in physical, or emotional danger at home, if you are being abused and if there is anything they cannot talk to you about in from of your husband. Probably a good idea, I wonder how many people actually say they are being abused? I woke up a couple hours later with some nausea etc, and insisting to have a bed pan cuz I felt like I had to go pee, but it was just from the catheter. In my groggy state though I must have laid on it for almost two hours, refusing to let the nurse take it away “just in case” She finally just took it from me. Maybe she was scared I was going to break it under my new svelte body? I then went back to sleep for another few hours. They gave me methdone for the pain yesteray (and believe me, I did not feel a thing happily) and also put on a scopamine patch for nausea for a few days. Then I was allowed to go home, which was even better. They did laprascopic surgery which was a bonus!!! 3 little holes, the two you see and one down by my groin area. Although maybe they had 4 cuz it kind of looks like they also went in my belly buttom too.!

Laprascopy holes. 3 little ones!

Laprascopy holes. 3 little ones!

They took out uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes, cervix and some lymph glands for pathology, and my Dr (Rittenaier) told me when they got pathology results he would call me whether it was 4 in the morning or 4 in the afternoon. That is nice to know. Well, as long as the results are good.. In this picture below you can see my parts sliced open vertically, and the horizontal stripes, cut marks are where they opened up to see possible how deep it was I think.  Apparently part of the cancer is the things that look like bubby fat cells in the middle. My husband talked to him not me, and Bazza is never big on details! Pretty achy inside, and really just been sleeping for the last 24 hours and I will go back to bed after that… GREAT to have just a few little holes on the outside. He also said to “listen to my body” if I have pain take pills, if I am tired go to sleep, but other then that he only has a couple rules. 1) No driving at all for two weeks 2) No sexual intercourse for 6 weeks 3) No carrying anything over 10 lbs, or anything I have to pick up with two hands. That means my husband gets to go grocery shopping whether he likes to or not.. So, I am sure this is riddled with mistakes even though I proofed it… but, all is well..and I am a happy girl to finally have these out of my body after having problems for quite awhile… That uterus is not exactly petite!

Female parts!

Female parts!

So yeah, endometrial cancer is out! We will just wait for pathology now and that will determine if I have to do follow up chem or radiation.

Roses, Rats and Safari Trek RV’s..*SOLD*

Quite the title hey? Bazza called me out to take pictures of dads roses and send them away to him today. So here you go dad, roses are in full bloom!

Roses in front of house

Roses in front of house

Roses in front of house

Roses in front of house

Roses in front of house

Roses in front of house

Bazza has been outside washing and polishing our safari trek RV. *SOLD NOW*

All shiny, clean and polished.

All shiny, clean and polished.

On top of the RV taking all the California dust off of it...

On top of the RV taking all the California dust off of it…

And Baz also mentioned to me that I should take my camera and go take a picture of the crows bird bath. I knew it had to be horrible as the crows leave all sorts of stuff in there to rot and soften up. I did not stay long! I am not taking that out so I hope they eat it soon!

DSC_1139I stepped on bird seed all the way to the swimming pool today on the patio from the Finch’s bird seed, told them we were going to stop filling it until they ate the seeds on the ground! There is some they don’t like and man are they quick at throwing them out…